[Ellipsis]
I think the first time I heard this question was my last year of secondary school and one of my answers (I had a lot of answers then) was that I saw myself operating on Nicki Minaj. Don’t even ask questions bruh….
That was also the last time I had an answer to that question. Every other time I’ve thought of where I see myself in 5…10 years, I picture that far and come up blank. I know things I’m sure I’ll have in my life in the nearest future, like a dog (dogs), a place I decorated myself with a lot of plants, a Tesla, friends, a secure routine/job.
I don’t know how to put it but I have an idea of the things I would want in my life and it’s not ‘working with xxx company’, or settling down, or conquering the world.
I mean I’m definitely still going to keep fighting for women and dismantling the patriarchy, so I guess I’ll be conquering the world in my own way but you get what I mean.
Like I know I want a secure job but I don’t know what exactly I want to do. I just know that whatever it, I want to have a work-life balance that still allows me to be ME. Not some creature that comes back from work exhausted and unhappy, but still asking ‘WHAT’S THE NEXT MOVE?’ and posting ‘THE GRIND DON’T END. #BACK TO THE GRIND.’ on Snapchat.
In fact, the only grinding I intend to do is in the gym.
I've pretty much made the decisions that mattered in my life at my own pace, not when all my friends were doing it, and I always felt like I was wasting time. It's like I turned 18 and was like... 'OMG! TIME IS UP! YOU DON'T HAVE TIME TO DO ANYTHING AGAIN! ADULT, ADULT! CODE RED!
And now, I’m at the point in my life where I’m expected to rise and grind because that’s what people my age do right? But I don’t want to be you people. I mean you lot do you, but not me though.
The thing is, rise and grind is not even anything anyone forces on you. It’s just things people around you do and you start to feel like you’re not ambitious enough when you want to do things at your own wavelength, or when you don’t have a side passion or hustle. So now you’re under pressure to exert yourself to show that you’re doing something with your life. Whole time you could have just figured out/done your own thing at your own pace.
Where are the people that finish school and start backpacking across Europe? I mean, not me either cus I need a visa and I’m an International student but yeah at least that’s cooler.
When people say “we really thought we’d get married before 25”, I’m like, ‘who’s we?’ I never saw myself getting married before 25. Admittedly, I don’t particularly know where I see myself in 10 years but I know the things I don’t see.
Sorry to my parents and anyone planning on proposing to me after graduation.
You know in ‘Pretty Hurts’ video, when they asked Beyonce, ‘what is your aspiration in life?’ and she says, ‘my aspiration in life would be to be happy’
Was she asking for too much or too little? I’m genuinely curious.
Cus me too. I just know that whatsoever I do 10 years from now, I definitely still want to remain happy.
So yeah, Where do I see myself in 10 years?
I don’t really know…but I and my dog(s) would be living a soft life, that bit is certain.
Then again, 10 years is a long time, who knows, by the time I come back to this next year, I might have a more solid picture.
Comments