Journalling- Ageing, NYRs, Life Lately...
If you’re wondering where I’ve been for the last 64 days, no I have not been under a rock, I’ve actually been outside touching grass. But as a pessimist once said, all good things must come to an end, so on that note,
Happy New Year.
Has anyone noticed how time flies (to put it very lightly) when you’re an adult? Like we’re already at the first quarter of the year. I know I say this a lot but between balancing work and life, you realise how much time there isn’t.
I was looking at myself the other day in the mirror, and maybe it’s because of the whole discourse on buccal fat etc, but I noticed that I now NOTICE my nasolabial folds and it’s kind of messed me up because I’m like, has it always been there, is it new? It’s a very minute thing, but all I think about when I see it now is how I’m ageing but I don’t think I’ve done anything to mark the milestone. For lack of a better explanation, it’s like time is flying right in front of me in every other aspect, but otherwise, I’m moving like a snail.
A more adult adult would probably say something like, ‘you don’t have to rush’, and I agree but does my body know that? I got a cold at the start of the year and I was shocked! It was shocking news. My immune system has been nothing short of excellent and to be put down by a common cold? Shocking.
Moving on to new year's resolutions. I’d talk about last year’s but the past is in the past. Focusing on 2023, my biggest resolution is to take charge of my life. It's broad because it encompasses other small resolutions I made. Career-wise, in terms of personal growth, my social life, financially, I intend to take charge of these aspects of my life and stop ‘vibing’ for lack of a better word.
64 days in and I have to say it’s been overwhelming. Okay, not every aspect, but career-wise, it might just be the reason for those aforementioned laugh lines.
I’m envious of people who knew straight out of secondary school, what they wanted to do career-wise. My mum was telling me the other weekend, how when I was in school I always wanted to be done with it, and I had to cut in because one thing I remember vividly is how much I wanted to remain in school due to my chronic career crisis. In fact, the worst question you could ask me then was ‘what do you plan to do with your degree; what do you plan to do after school?’ Like do you mind if I have a good day?
It's funny, cause it was during that period that I was told I seemed like someone that had my life together- one of the best compliments I've received. (Y’all, it’s all about packaging). What was that iconic tweet?
Anyways, one of the things I appreciated about school is how it gives you a clear path on how to progress. Outside of school, in the work world, it’s constantly asking yourself if you’ve been somewhere too long. ‘Is it normal that I’ve been in this same spot for a year? Is it time to move higher?’ But with school, it’s automatically progressive. Study, pass, next level. Study, pass, next level. Wash, rinse, repeat.
In the work world, you have to be intentional or you risk stagnancy. It dawned on me like a culture shock and I’m still struggling to adjust.
I see now how the world being your oyster is such a marvellous thing but under certain conditions, it's the ultimate paradox of choice.
On things I’m excited about this year?
1. Hosting: I plan to host more friend gatherings this year and even planning them alone is keeping me happy.
2. Travelling: I went to Vancouver last year, and if I’m able to get my US Visa this year, I’m looking at somewhere in the US next; if not, then within the country.
3. Planning my life: I actually made my own planner at the beginning of the year, and I have to say, the girls were right, there’s something about having a planner. I’ve been so excited to jot down my TDL, track my spending, dump stray thoughts, write future ideas, track my career hunting journey, all in one book. Can’t wait to flip through it at the end of the year.
4. Taylor’s international tour dates (still manifesting tickets against all odds)
The year already looks hopeful. I know the year always looks hopeful at the start but it’s March and I’m still feel hopeful so fingers crossed. Ready for the 2023 ride?
Let me know your 2023 NYR and how life’s been lately!
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